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High School is Over, Baby

And thank god for that.  Though I've grown less prolific, I like to think my angst has, if not dissipated, at least matured.  I hope to one day achieve a poetic elegance.  This is, unfortunately, not it.  Also, some of these are songs, which explain the flow better.  One or two of the Crappy High School Poems were also songs, by the way.

Not Gonna Lose

Am I only enough when I'm standing all alone?
No one else in sight to compare me to.
Tell me that this is not my fault.
I can't promise you the future.
But you're not gonna lose me tonight.
We're fine, we're fine.  But I'm not.

Am I only enough when you've made a mistake?
When you owe me a favor or two.
I'll tell you that it's not your fault.
You'll promise it won't happen again.
But you're not gonna lose me tonight.
We're fine, we're fine.  But I'm not.

When will you see how much good is in me?
When will I see what I really am?
Then maybe you'll lose me tonight.

   The Second Step

I feel so raw.
I wish I had a big soft blanket
that I could wrap myself up in
so that nothing could touch my skin.
Wounded, blistered, bleeding skin
Victim of a thousand lashes.
If I could only soak in cool water
and soothe the burns of love unrequited.
Burns that will not heal
My heart within, shattered and weeping
Sanity hanging by a spider's thread.
Onward, my lamb, innocent one
pure and clean as winter's first snow.
I must press onward
or face the wrath of the past
Always two steps behind.

Understand Me

I'm kind of a dork, but that's okay
Cause no matter what stupid things I say
You always seem to get my jokes anyway

No matter how corny and silly they may be
No matter how often my foot's between my teeth
You have always been there and
that's where you'll always be.

Cause you will always understand me.
Yeah you alone understand me.

And baby I know every time I cry
You always know the reasons I sigh
You will never have to question why

The things that often mess with my head
And the things that make me wish I was dead
You have always banished
the monsters under my bed.

Cause you will always understand me.
Yeah you alone understand me.
No one else understands me.
Cause you alone understand me.

trapped

stretching out fingers
into empty space
wishing for an answer
dreaming of a place

standing inside my circle
these four walls are getting smaller
trapped inside myself
i'm not getting any farther

wanting to be longed for
wanting to be dear
just to be so much more
why am i still stuck right here?

fake smiles, forcing laughter
pretending i'm not what i am
what do i become soon after
when i am alone again?

Sheared
Innocent as a lamb, I'm sheared,
Stripped of all my glory.
They took all that I held dear,
Without considering my story.
Shivering in a barren field now,
Alone and frightened of man.
I'm standing here and I'm bleating loud,
Just to show you all I give a damn.
I hate you for what you took from me,
My protection, my innocence, my pride.
But I stand and scream just to make you see,
I'm not about to turn tail and hide.
You see, I'm coming back for you,
And I'm taking back what's mine.
For all the fear that you put me through,
I rest assured, revenge will be divine.


Pink Satin and Lace

I open up my fairy tale book
To see just where I went wrong

"In a room with no stairs, in the tallest tower
The Princess must wait for her Knight to save her"

Apparently enough, I've done my part
So where are you?
Where have you gone wrong?

Did the dragon trick you and send you away?
Ah, she only pretends to love me
Were you waylaid by robbers on the side of the road?
Is it you who needs rescuing now?

Waiting, waiting eternally
No, that won't be my fate
I don't care what they say about us
I'll come to save thee now!

Shedding my skin of pink satin and lace
Setting aside that damn crown
I'll be tricking the dragon this time
Ah, she only pretends to love me

Maybe black leather and camouflage now
That befits a Princess on her crusade
I'll lie to the dragon and slip past beyond her
Ah, she only pretends to love me anyway

Bet you didn't know I could use a sword
I'm damn good at it too
Bet you didn't know a lot of things
Maybe I'm stronger than you

A Princess without her pink satin and lace
I journey to rescue my Knight
Lo and behold, he's been captured by gypsies
Forbidden ever to leave!

My time has come, I'll free him yet!
But what is this?  He is not bound?
Neither rope nor chain mar his skin
Could it be he has chosen to remain?

And who is that gypsy maiden
Wearing pink satin and lace?
She has no dragon to trick you away
No trials to win her hand

But my hand holds a sword; the weapon of men
And now it is sheathed effortlessly
By the princess who wasn't a Princess
Not in the eyes of her Knight anyway

Oh, hie me away to my cold tower!
And I'll put on my pink satin and lace
Fix my crown of cold gold upon my head
And try to please that damn dragon

So goodbye my Knight Errant
For you I shed no tear
I offer you instead my pity
For you must be full of shame

If I must wait eternally, I shall
For my true Knight to come
He will possess more strength than thee
And for him I will never need to discard my

Pink satin and lace


Now see? Wasn't that better, and worth sifting through Crappy High School Poetry for?